embottom asked: I'm restarting again too! So nice to know I'm not doing it alone :)
Yay! Good luck sweetie :)
So here’s the plan.
Back to my old habits of calorie counting; avoiding all pasta, bread, rice and potatoes; refusing any sweets/chocolate/junk food.
Luckily I already stocked up my kitchen a few days ago with good low-cal, low-fat, low-sugar food. And I no longer have any “bad” food in the house. So it’s as simple as not buying any more food. I don’t need it, I have plenty in the house to feed myself.
I’m going to focus on getting my eating back on track before I start introducing any set exercise plan, but I have already been on the elliptical this morning. I’ll just try to slowly work up to that.
Trying to enter this with a positive mindset. I’ve done it before - I can do it again! Right?!
I’m going to be honest now - STATS.
I keep saying I’ll start and nothing happens then I weight myself again and realize that I’ve gained more.
So here we go.
Previous start weight: 209
Current weight: 184 (not sure how much of this is water weight..)
Previous weight six months ago: 154
WHAT THE FUCK HAVE I DONE?!
I’ve gone backwards, and I don’t like it. NONE of my clothes feel right on me. This weight is going. Now.
So glad that I’m back at work full time as of tomorrow, I know it will help keep me on track.
Time to get serious with this shit.
I’m practically back to where I started.
End of excuses, I DO NOT want to put on any more weight.
Here’s the start of me doing something about it. Having coffee and yoghurt for breakfast, and soup for dinner later. I’m gonna go to a supermarket today and stock up on diet stuff.
This time I’m not stopping until I reach the 140’s.
I want to go home.
As long as the new security doors are there.
I think my cousin wants to move in with me too. I didn’t like the idea at first but I guess the company and extra cash would be nice..
And also it means I could get a dog!! I really want a dog but I’d feel bad leaving it alone all day while I work; except with my cousin living in the house too then the poochy wouldn’t be alone so much! Yey!
Anyway for now it’s bedtime for me. Hopefully I find out tomorrow just exactly when I can go back to Liverpool and back to my house, and all my stuff.
beedleebee asked: Hey just saw your post about the break-in, so sorry to hear about that it sounds horrible and shocking. Maybe you could get a friend to come and stay with you for a couple of days?x
Yeah I’ve got a couple of friends and a cousin in the area who said they’d be happy to do that for me for the first few nights. :) Thankyou for your kind message x
I want to go home.
I want to go back to my flat but I’m scared I won’t feel safe there.
Last night I stayed up until past 3am crying and generally trying to forget what happened.
Maybe I should get a dog? My mum would be angry with me saying I’m not available enough for one but…. still.
Ugh.
Living Alone
Lasted two weeks. I’m back at my Mum’s house tonight after having my house broken into last night. I didn’t even hear them kick the door in or anything. I wasn’t asleep either, but I still had no idea it had happened until some guy in a hood came into my bedroom.
I’ve never felt so vulnerable and scared before in my life. Luckily nothing was stolen but it’s shaken me out of my skin. My friend took me in for the night and let me crash down on her sofa; not that I slept. Today I did my statement with the police and packed some things and came back to my Mum’s. I slept for a while this afternoon and felt a bit better but of course now it’s dark again and I can’t relax.
I feel unsafe and alone. It’s horrible and I have no idea where to start with getting myself back together.
